Lost my mum last night - the grieving process?

[amy56]

Hi all,

So sadly last night my dear mum lost her battle with the horrific disease that is Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis 😢

I have literally spent the last 20hours veering between calmness and hysterical crying/panic. I can’t begin to comprehend living in this world without her.

I actually feel like I’m losing my mind - I seem to get shocked on an hourly basis as if it hits me afresh every time - and I keep thinking how I need to phone my mum to tell her this awful news & I just can’t comprehend that it’s her that’s gone!

Anyone else find this was their experience of extreme grief? I have lost people before (my grandparents who I was incredibly close to and also my dad nineteen years ago), but I’ve always had my mum to support me through these things, and that is who I need to help me through this now & she’s no longer here 😢

Sorry to post such a sad and depressing post, I just feel like I’m losing the plot! 😢