Awful start to the year, pixie dust needed please

[scottsmummy]

So this has been the most awful start to the year that I can remember for a long while. It's the start of a new year without my beloved best friend who passed away last year after a long, hard fought battle with cancer.

Her birthday was on Wednesday and I was just about prepared for it when we got a call at 6:30 in the morning to say my hubby's cousin (only 37) had had a heart attack and was in a bad way. Although he's a cousin they are more like brothers as they grew up together and are super close.

We all rushed to hospital and he's clinging on for his life with his fingertips. He's had several cardiac episodes and the hospital have been amazing and given him so much care and the best chance at life. He's currently in ICU and has so many amazing nurses looking after him. He's currently sedated but as they try to bring him round he's having seizures. So we've been told that he's to have a brain scan tomorrow and on Tuesday we'll find out whether there is any damage and if there is any hope at survival. His heart stopped 12 times in the ambulance between hospitals that we know of, but it must be more as this was after his first heart attack.

To say I'm terrified is an understatement and I need to be strong and support my husband. But I just can't stop the feeling of dread in my stomach. And I've got to go to work as we can't afford to both take unpaid time off, so I feel awful leaving him.

I just needed to get this off my chest as I have no one to talk to, as my one friend that I could offload to is the one who isn't here.

Any good thoughts and pixie dust would be much appreciated.

And can I just say, please take your health seriously as we found out he'd had chest pains for a couple of days and dismissed them. Even on the day of his heart attack he took two paracetamol rather than call a doctor until it was too late. That's the saddest part of the story.

Again, thanks for letting me ramble.

Sarah

[Guest]

Sending lots of love and wishes. I've done the ICU dance, I can empathise with how exhausted and helpless you must be feeling. Take care x

[Rac20]

Sending pixie dust your way. Xx

[Button17]

Sending thoughts, prayers and pixie dust all round xx

[honeybun1989]

Sorry to hear your news, my thoughts are with you all xx

[jackster14]

Sending positive thoughts to you all.

[Tinkermom]

Sending love and positive thoughts x

[Alwaysdisley]

Pixie dust heading your way, try to stay positive. 🧚🏻

[vampiress88]

Pixie dust

[scottsmummy]

Thank you all, it's much appreciated.

I'm hoping for a miracle.